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Hey ya'll!

I have been in hibernation from blogging. I really stink at this. I'll let you know what has been going on. When I started this blog, I had soooooo many ideas, but lately I have been using my brain for good instead of evil! Idk, if have no excuse this time. I have been focusing more on school and kid raising lately. Then there was this one time I focused on job finding for a day or two. I seem really ambitious don't I? Anyways, I wanted to answer the question that everyone asks me, "How do you do it all?!?!" Some ask in awe, some ask with fear and dread of having to manage what I do everyday. Well lady and gentleman (I know I have a small audience. So what!), My answer is I don't. Seriously, I am a procrastinating, take life as it comes, [insert witty phrase] kinda girl. As a mother and a student this makes me insane. Yes. I said it. I am somehow still maintaining a 3.5 GPA, my children are still wonderful; according to their doctor, they always have great skin (not sure what that means), and no one has starved or suffered any injuries. The truth is I don't know how I do it. I just do it because I have to. No one will do all of this if I don't! So I suck it up, mumble under my breath and keep going! Anyone who tells you being a stay at home mom is easy, is a damn liar! Try it for one day. Am I ranting? Didn't mean to but it was on my mind.

Mommy stuff:
When I think of my grandmother, one of the things I think of besides great down home food, is her affinity for making the best of bad situations. My mother told me one year she put together a a bathing suit using a t-shirt and old spandex shorts. She sewed it together. I have no idea what this design looked like. My mom said embarrassing! All I know is that my mom still got to go swimming even though the family couldn't afford to buy a new swimsuit. My Nana's favorite word was improvise. "You have to improvise" This is something I will always take from her because they may not have had everything they wanted but they had what they needed. I will always improvise when I have to! That's a good mama right there! Next week I'll tell you about my box/ sled from Nana of course, lol!

Missed me?...... Anyone?!?!?!

Hello to my one reader out there! lol Thank you for patiently awaiting my next post. I really took a long time to recuperate from my daughters birthday party. Geeeesh! I just wanted to take time to vent. Being a stay a home mom can get lonely and a toddler can't really hold much of a conversation. I just have a lot of time to think and I get really down when I think about how many people I know vs. how many people keep in touch with me. I had a big group of friends once and nowadays I feel that the number is dwindling. I don't blame becoming a mother. If they were real friends, they would be supportive of me and try and find ways they could help out, if needed. Most of them did not. Then they want to blame it on the changes (kids) in my life. Well I've come to realize that sometimes you have to go through something to see who your true friends are. True friends are there through thick and thin, richer or poorer (and even when you work too much to see them). True friends know when you need help and don't hesitate to offer before you ask. To the people who have disappointed me, I am not a spiteful person. Should you come to me and extend your friendship, I will not reject you. Just know that we are not in the same place. To the people who have ALWAYS been there, I love you. Words can't express what you mean to me and my sanity lol. Even if we don't see each other everyday we talk through facebook, aim, or whatever. I appreciate all of you. You'll never know how much you've done just being there to talk to.









Visit Our Natural Kids

"Happy Bird-day!"

My baby girl is turning 2... *tear* Why do the cute baby years go by so fast? I'm not saying that my daughter isn't cute, but toddlers are pretty darn self-centered. I used to go to her room in the morning to be greeted with a smile and a g'mornin. Now it goes like this, Me: Good morning Leila! Her: Food. Me: Say good morning to your mommy! Her: Eat food. Breakfast. There is no doubt that's my child! Before her arrival I would not be able to function without food first thing. Ask her father about that one ;) Wine and dine me first, lol. Anyways my daughter Leila is growing and learning at alarming rates. I can't even keep up with all the things she knows. She says bless you after people sneeze. I can't even take credit for that! I miss being her favorite person though. She is so independent already. I guess that's how her little brother, Micah got here. A little early for that empty nest feeling? Just to reiterate, I'm weird. As stated in my last post, I have these crazy ideas of what a great mom is. I just want to try and find a balance between being a real woman and a real mother. Just because I want to bake cookies and such, doesn't mean that I want to give up my life and my career goals until they're 18. I want that happy medium that keeps me well so I am better able to care for them. Who wants a lonely, depressed, unfulfilled supermom? I'm assuming no one does.

Back to the Birdday (Leila's pronunciation, not mine) Girl. So I have this grand idea for her birthday, that I had been thinking about since I gave birth to a baby girl. We are having a dress up tea party! Leila is so excited. She helped my mother pick out some of the supplies, singing 'happy birthday to you' every time she saw a candle or a picture of a cake, or anything shiny. We found a cupcake dress with an apron... so adorable. I did a makeshift photo shoot with a porcelain tea set I bought when I was pregnant with her in 2008. Told you I've been planning this for a while!Well those picture were added to the invitations, which are darling, if I do say so myself. Pictures will follow ;)

Feigning Productivity...

Hello again! I have a quiet second to myself today, so instead of eating or doing homework I decided to write (hence the title). I'm kidding, I can multitask. I'm stuffing my face as we speak! Its morning and I don't hear my name being called by my toddler as of yet and the newborn is asleep. Woot! I wanted to take a moment to let you know this blog is about exactly (as I may have gone off track in my first post). The title is "The Mommy I Want To Be" because I feel the biggest impact I make in the world will be on my children. To some extent, you can't control who your children will become (esp. in those teen years I'm soooo dreading) but there is no doubt that as parents, you influence them. So as I wonder what my influence will be, I think about my mother. I have so many memories of when I was young, of my mother taking the time to play dolls and tea party with me. This was one of the most important things to me because I was an only child, so I often played alone. I also remember the time my mother took to pack my lunch when I started school. I remember when she would bake and make things just because it was my favorite. Then all of a sudden those things my mother did that I loved the most just stopped. It was until recently that I realized that this was when she went back to school to finish her Bachelors degree. She did this to provide a better life for me, but all I wanted was for her to have time to play again. Now that I'm a parent, I'm in the same boat. I'm going to finish my BS before my kids are old enough to notice that there are sometimes I can't play, but I do have career goals and I want a Masters. Will there be a point where they feel I don't have time for them?

Anyway, I have a list of things that I feel would make me a great mom. It may not necessarily be realistic, but its worth trying! I want to be the mommy that cooks comfort food you love (and no one can make like me), bakes cakes, cookies, makes fudge and maybe even her own special frosting. I want to be the mommy that packs your lunch with homemade goodies, has the weeks meals planned ahead of time so she can help with homework, talk, play or wrestle. I want to be the mommy that can provide financially so daddy doesn't break his back doing it alone. I want to be the mommy that is never 'too tired' for what you need. This blog is about my journey in motherhood and what I do in my life to be the mommy I want to be. Like I said, it may not be realistic, but aim for the moon... I can't remember the rest of that quote. My point is aim high because even if you don't reach that height, at least your not at the bottom. I don't know it sounds better in Spanish. lol

Thanks for reading!
~ MissyJ

I'd Like to Get to Know You...

Hello! Welcome to my side of the blogosphere (is that what they call it?) Anyways my name is MissyJ, and I felt it necessary to create this blog so as not to implode. Let me explain... I am a 24 year old mother of two (2 months shy of of two years apart. Oops.), an online student, stay at home mom, an only child, and a weirdo. I've always loved working, I got a job as soon as it was legal for me to do so and before that I volunteered for different organizations. It is kinda hard to be a SAHM. I enjoy being there for all the milestones my kids reach, but I like being productive and being around other adults; sometimes. Before I continue, I will warn you my blog will include many parentheses. That's how I roll. Honestly the blog starts as a dialogue in my head and the parentheses are like little side notes I make while typing (told you, weirdo.) Where was I? Oh, well this blog is my diary to encourage my own mental health and to give you readers something to laugh/ think about.



I'm also documenting the journey of motherhood. When I was little, I was extremely ambitious. I wanted to be a chef, a hair dresser, a famous singer, on Broadway, a dancer, a musician, an obstetrician (totally not kidding), and on and on. In the midst of all these dreams, I've always wanted to be a mommy. I also wanted 8 kids, but I've thought long and hard about why that wouldn't work! When you think about it, in the past families were that size and larger, but these days many are content with one. People survived the Great Depression with 10 kids, and we complain about our struggles. I'm not saying that we shouldn't complain, Lord knows I have a lot to complain about, but I'd like to know what has changed. Do we have higher standards? Do we have higher expectations of what we need to be comfortable? Leave me a comment, let me know what you think... (btw you should follow me!)

Thanks for reading ;-)