Feigning Productivity...

Hello again! I have a quiet second to myself today, so instead of eating or doing homework I decided to write (hence the title). I'm kidding, I can multitask. I'm stuffing my face as we speak! Its morning and I don't hear my name being called by my toddler as of yet and the newborn is asleep. Woot! I wanted to take a moment to let you know this blog is about exactly (as I may have gone off track in my first post). The title is "The Mommy I Want To Be" because I feel the biggest impact I make in the world will be on my children. To some extent, you can't control who your children will become (esp. in those teen years I'm soooo dreading) but there is no doubt that as parents, you influence them. So as I wonder what my influence will be, I think about my mother. I have so many memories of when I was young, of my mother taking the time to play dolls and tea party with me. This was one of the most important things to me because I was an only child, so I often played alone. I also remember the time my mother took to pack my lunch when I started school. I remember when she would bake and make things just because it was my favorite. Then all of a sudden those things my mother did that I loved the most just stopped. It was until recently that I realized that this was when she went back to school to finish her Bachelors degree. She did this to provide a better life for me, but all I wanted was for her to have time to play again. Now that I'm a parent, I'm in the same boat. I'm going to finish my BS before my kids are old enough to notice that there are sometimes I can't play, but I do have career goals and I want a Masters. Will there be a point where they feel I don't have time for them?

Anyway, I have a list of things that I feel would make me a great mom. It may not necessarily be realistic, but its worth trying! I want to be the mommy that cooks comfort food you love (and no one can make like me), bakes cakes, cookies, makes fudge and maybe even her own special frosting. I want to be the mommy that packs your lunch with homemade goodies, has the weeks meals planned ahead of time so she can help with homework, talk, play or wrestle. I want to be the mommy that can provide financially so daddy doesn't break his back doing it alone. I want to be the mommy that is never 'too tired' for what you need. This blog is about my journey in motherhood and what I do in my life to be the mommy I want to be. Like I said, it may not be realistic, but aim for the moon... I can't remember the rest of that quote. My point is aim high because even if you don't reach that height, at least your not at the bottom. I don't know it sounds better in Spanish. lol

Thanks for reading!
~ MissyJ